My personal psychic experiences

The hybrid eggs and other stories

There was a story my guides told me that was curious.

How accurate and true it was depends on your beliefs.

See, that’s the interesting thing about these kind of stories. Anyone can tell you anything. You have no way of proving if it’s true or not, at least not on a 3D level.

In history, many things are lost. We try and look at the evidence that is left in order to piece together the information of what happened back then. The further back we go, the more you probably need to speculate.

So you consider how dragons and phoenii seem to appear in every culture, but to my knowledge, no real physical evidence has been left behind to show such creatures existed.

Yes, for something that is said to be just mythical, it certainly has made the rounds though history and location.

So what could have inspired such stories? Could such mythical creatures have really existed? If so, what happened to them? Why did they leave? Did something kill them off?

In 2007, my guides told me this story. It came across as more like a history lesson.

People are always going on about how one day, this world will magically shift into a higher dimension and all of a sudden, we’ll all be ascended. To my mind, this doesn’t feel at all likely or probable.

 But the story I was told was that millenniums ago, that’s exactly how the world was. It existed in a higher vibrational level.

The way that it was explained was that each dimension has a vibrational range. There are constraints where you have your minimum vibration and maximum one before you shift into another level completely. Maybe it can be likened to an octave.  

This earth used to be on a much higher level in this range.

Now, the higher a vibrational level, the easier and faster you can manifest things. Anyone who has experience with the astral will know that things are created instantly (though not necessarily with any substance, but that’s another topic.)

One of things that is easy to do in the astral is shift to any form you wish. There are certainly stories of loved ones departing and returning to reassure their families they are doing well and they will look healthy and radiant in order to assure those who see them that they are happy and well.

So, when this planet was in a higher vibrational level, shape shifting was much easier The amount of energy and ability would have been much in order to do so. My understanding is that if someone wants to shape shift today, it would take an enormous amount of energy, more than is commonly available.

I’ve never actually heard of anyone claim they can shape shift, though there are plenty of claims out there of people doing it. Personally, I’m somewhat sceptical of it. However, having said that, I suppose it is possible in theory to spiritualize a body, change forms, and then return to this level. There are certainly enough stories out there of angels and guides appearing out of nowhere.

But I digress.

The higher energy of the time allowed those who were around to manipulate energies much easier. Those who understood the secrets and were attuned were able to appear to others as magicians.

Those who were uninitiated into these secrets looked upon those as gods.

Now we come to the part of the tale where it will sound trite, contrived and the product of a fertile imagination. For all I know, this may be completely wrong, but everything since 2004 has been about this.

Those who were initiated into the ways of power were indeed revered. I once referred to them as high priests, but I have been now led to believe they were something more.

Nowadays, they are referred to as Egyptian gods.

Gods such as Amon-RA, Ibis,  Isis, Thoth, Seth, Horus, Osiris, etc. I’m sure there were a lot of them, Until recently, I never bothered to look into it. I never really wanted to know. And yet, when I think on it, I sense a history and power there.

Now to take it a step further, these gods were also shape-shifters. For instance, RA was a dragon. Technically still is one, as nothing ever really dies.

But dragons being dragons, they abused their powers. Actually, I believe that all may have abused their powers in some way, including myself, as I was told that I was one who carried the eye of RA, and went on a spree of destruction.

In regards to that, I had a serious of synchs that lead to one of those 'someone walking over your grave' feelings where you know and feel that something is definitely true. As insane as it sounds, the Eye of RA was carried by a phoenix and I was that phoenix.

As much as I really hate to believe that I did this, part of me feels the resonance. My intuition doesn’t kick in to tell me that it’s wrong.  

So, what happened? Well, this is partly a grey area. What I do understand is that a group of druids weren’t at all happy about this abuse of power. Personally, I can see their point.

At stone hedge, they performed a ritual which included a kidnapped baby dragon. Apparently it had been taken while a large group of dragons were leaving for somewhere and wasn't missed until it was too late.

The dragon was used in this ritual which the end result was that the Earth vibrational level was slowed down to such an extent that it was no longer possible for the gods to shape shift at will. Needless to say, it also affected their powers. Effectively, they were blocked from this world in that form.

They were not pleased and were out for revenge.

Revenge.  Sounds very dramatic, doesn't it? But I remember an interesting sync. In the CV chat room, I asked what the motivation was for the dragon wars that people were talking about. I asked if it was about revenge. At that moment, someone said they had just heard the word’ revenge’ on their radio. It felt right.

And this dragon war, (well technically dragons and from what I gather, phoenii are involved, too), has been mentioned by quite a few others since 2004. Several who I’ve not ever discussed any of my experiences with.

This is where it gets muddy. At least, at the time of writing this, it does. I’m not sure if it’s dragon versus dragon. I don’t know if there are factions. I don’t know how the druids fit in. I’m not sure where I factor in, either.

As far as I'm concerned at this point of time, I clearly do not support such a war. I don't care if people have had these visions where they have seen destruction and carnage of an inevitable conflict. It doesn't have to happen. I certainly do not plan to use my powers astrally to help any particular side, much to the annoyance of certain entities.

This leads me to my experiences that happened In 2004, I had quite a few interesting ones, to put it mildly.

In that year, I split up with my wife. We had both gone in different direction and were on different paths, wanted different things out of life and in order for me to experience what I have since, I needed to move on.

As a side note, I certainly don’t regret being married or the time I spent with her. Life is change and sometimes you need to experience things in order to move to the next stage.  I’m certainly much happier this side of marriage than I was before I met my ex.

So, as my marriage came to an end, things really started to pick up on the phoenix side of things.  Before it was just me just trying to come to terms with the ‘you are the phoenix’ messages that I got every day. Then I went through my period where I focused on my dragon energies and tried to ignore the phoenix energies, to no avail, I should add. My guides certainly weren’t going to let me do that.

With all the  messages and synchronicities I had gotten over the years, I had finally accepted that I was a phoenix. Still, as I was going to discover, that was just the beginning of it.

This story is told with names and many events left out. Partly because these people are still around and I have no wish to implicate them and partly because some of the things that happened, though mind boggling, aren’t strictly relevant.

It really began when I came to the CV chat room one day in March 2004 and ran into a lady who was familiar with the phoenix energy. I’ll refer to her as WA. She had come to the room to hide from another phoenix connected person and for a few minutes, she thought I was this person and I had tracked her down.

She soon checked my energy and found that I wasn’t him, and we began chatting. This was the first person I had met that actually not only knew that the phoenix wasn’t just a myth, but also knew others who were connected to the phoenix.

Time passed and we became closer. WA had recently broken up with someone from another chat room who was connected to another phoenix who he called Shanuue. She was also referred to as a white phoenix. (Hence I shall refer to this person as White Phoenix or WP) She said that during their time together, she had left a scale of a dragon in him and he; a feather of a phoenix in her.

WA was very strongly connected to dragon energy and said that her dragon was called Dragonheart. (Just like the MUD where I had received my phoenix / dragon spirit message from.) She once stated that Dragonheart would never allow his real name to be said by her. Something that I thought interesting, but couldn’t see how it would matter to me if I knew it or not.  It's not as though it would have been significant to me. And as I tend to not pry into things that aren't my business, I never pursued that thread.

It was during the period with WA where I become aware that there were more than one phoenix. This actually took me by surprise. It had never occurred to me that there would actually be more than one. History had lead me to believe that only one existed at a time, but history was wrong.

I guess I should have realized it as there are so many dragons about. The story that only one phoenix ever manifest on earth at a time had led me to this assumption. But not only did I discover there were many phoenii, but I also found that they were attached to people in this world. The best I can understand at the moment is that someone is phoenix related or is a phoenix or resonates on that energy level and there is a phoenix that is connected to it.

The interesting thing is that once I became aware of this, I realized that I had several phoenii around me. Not all the time, mind you. But they were in and out, according to their own agendas. Their energies were also distinct. I could identify them by the way they felt. Some felt young and some had been around for a long time. Once White Phoenix had identified the name of his phoenix (Shanuue), I was able to get a lock on her. It didn't take me very long to realize that this was the same phoenix that gotten very annoyed that I had backed down on the plan to die. Apparently, according to WA, she was somehow inline to merge with my energies and gain more status.

I also realized that she was still hanging about, but not really interacting with me. There was a also another phoenix which I was familiar with the energy of, Eventually, she identified herself as Bennu or Benu. She claimed to be the Egyptian phoenix, or one of them, anyway. As I often felt I was connected with that phoenix, I assumed that this was my phoenix. Something she didn't do a lot to dissuade me of.

I also was getting the message that they were up to something and there would be hell to pay when I woke up and realized what was going on.

I was also told that I was to be ordained into my full phoenix power and into the realm of fire. It then came as no surprise to me that Benu began merging with me. It was quite an interesting experience. It was as though I had taken on a life form of love and energy and while I was conscious of her presence, I was also still fully aware of my own self. It was also like seeing things through her eyes and 3D things were new and to be experienced. Things such as driving my car. It was certainly true that I had a lot more energy and she didn't seem to understand the concept of sleep. At times, I would be tired and she would ask if she could take over and I would kind of sit back in my mind and she would chat to some people on the net. She freaked out a few of my friends who could clearly feel her presence. She also wasn't shy about identifying herself to them.

When they asked her if she was me, she said that she was part of me, but I was not a host. That my powers were not dependant on her.

This was a very interesting experience. I knew quite strongly that this was indeed a phoenix. The energy was very compatible with mine and I felt it very distinctly when she would join me.

She tended to come and go, though she did spend a lot of time with me and found the experience of being in my body to be exhilarating. In mornings, I would wake up and she would be saying, let’s get going. There were times when we argued over what I wanted to do. It was a very odd experience.

It must be made clear that this was not like a possession. I always maintained full control over my body, nor did I suffer any memory losses, though at times, I would let her take over, especially when I was tired and I would go on an automatic pilot. It was like sitting back and letting someone else type and chat for me.

This phoenix identified herself as Bennu, which is, of course, the Egyptian name of the phoenix. Whether that was her true name or not, I don’t know, but it’s certainly what she is referred to as now.

When she joined me, I felt a strong sense of love there and there certainly wasn’t anything malevolent.

I also became aware of the white phoenix, Shanuue, who was clearly working with Dragonheart and Bennu.

As WA and I grew closer, I knew that I would have to meet up with her. As she lived in New Zealand, it meant a trip over there for me.

Over the months, WA opened me up to a lot of things that I could do, but never realized. I learned that I could mind travel. I suspect this is also referred to as remote viewing, though if feels more involved. I’ve never succeeded in consciously astral travelling (and as I understand it now, it was for good reasons.) But mind travelling was as easy and natural to me as breathing.

I was able to travel to anywhere and see visually where I was, while my soul was still safely in my body. Not only was I able to travel, but I was able to do things astrally, too.

It would have been easy to dismiss this as just an over active imagination, and I would have, as I had been doing for years, except that WA was able to verify the things I did without me first telling her. For instance, if I closed a portal that was allowing negative energies in, she would verify it the moment I did so.

I started to become aware that I could also trace energies and take on dark entities. I could open and close portals with just a thought and the sword I had visualized for so many years, I found that had real energies in the astral levels.

It’s certainly not a unique experience, mind travelling. Many people do it. Many people know about it. Many also do it but don’t know they are doing it. There’s clearly a strong feeling you get when you do it, which differentiates it from just normal day dreams.

So many things happened during this time that it’s hard to put them into any logical sequence.

For instance, WA discovered that from her union with White Phoenix, she was carrying these spiritual / astral eggs.

If you’ve read this far, you’re probably either happy to accept that such things can happen or you’ve dismissed me as a nut a long time ago. Either way, it’s fine. I had to admit that I wasn’t sure what to make of it myself. Personally, I never understood what the point was behind such a thing, and I didn’t understand until 3 years later when it was explained to me by my guides.

These eggs were phoenix / dragon hybrids and WA just knew she was carrying them. No doubt, she sounded crazy to those she tried to tell, but intuitively, I never doubted the truth of it.

According to her, I was meant to visit her and she was to pass the eggs to me. Apparently, they needed a phoenix to carry them for the rest of their term. Bennu was most certainly interested in the eggs, too.

One night, WA asked me to take a look at the eggs, because something felt wrong. So I mind travelled and found myself looking at two rainbow coloured eggs (she had not told me what they looked like, but confirmed that’s what they were after) and there was an odd looking structure that seemed to be drawing off energies. I disabled it and felt the energies connected to Bennu and Shanuue. It appeared that they had been trying to get control of the eggs for some reason.

When I told WA, she threw a fit. She said that she didn’t want those phoenii around her. She swore that if they came anywhere near her, she would not be passing the eggs over to me. So from that point on, they kept their distance from her on an astral level.

WA certainly was one of the most psychic ladies I had met, and she could see and sense an incredible amount. So I trusted her.

She told me that I was a dragon / phoenix hybrid, and that was a very rare combination. The plan was for me to be inducted into the realm of fire and regain my full phoenix powers.

I also became aware of a council of dragons ands phoenii who I would occasionally come across. They sat mostly in shadow, and felt kind of cold and aloof to me. Still, they seemed to be interested in me, too. WA was also very much aware of them.

The day finally came where I got on that plane to go visit WA. Until that point, we had been contemplating if we could have a relationship and some people even had me already living in New Zealand. However, I felt that it wasn't going to be. I couldn't explain it, but I could feel it in my bone. WA was living in Auckland, New Zealand. She was 7 years my senior, had two children (A son 16 and a daughter 23 still living with her.) She also had three cats and one dog who seemed to take an instant liking to me

On the plane, I heard Bennu excitedly saying 'The eggs. The eggs'. Personally, I hadn't given that much thought to them. I did know they were meant to be hybrids (phoenix and dragon) and were being, well, bred to engage in a war between one faction of dragons who were fighting another faction, along with the phoenii.

Having come across more than a few dragons who had attacked me and my friends, it came as a surprise to me that I could neutralize their attacks with the powers within me. I discovered this after I had accepted the phoenix energies back and ended an attack in a moment from a dragon (one who was in a host body and was determined to destroy all the 'false ones') that had been going on for a long while now.

At the time, I mentioned this to a friend who said that the dragon could never defeat the phoenix. According to WA, it was because I was a hybrid. With both the phoenix and dragon parts of me, it added something new into the mix and gave me powers that were more potent for attacking and defending. Apparently hybrids were rare and WA said I was one of three, though how true that is I am not sure. She also indicated that I had more than phoenix and dragon within me. Something my guides have continually insisted on.

Anyways, the trip was uneventful and I met WA and her daughter at the airport. The first thing I noticed was that the energy in Auckland felt grey. I knew it wasn't a place I would want to live. I was going to be there for a week and it was going to be a week where I froze half the time because it got so cold.

The second thing that quickly became apparent was that I and WA weren't going to get together. I felt very uncomfortable on many levels. It wasn't that she made me uncomfortable; it was more like the energy wasn't there. On a personal level, it was a very tough week to get through, though fortunately there was enough happening to keep me interested.

I had arrived on a Sunday. On the Tuesday, WA did a healing session on me. She had me lie down on her massage table and worked on the energy fields. I found myself falling asleep for a few moments. She said that she went deep. She explained that she had been given these glyphs that she had to draw in the air on one side, and then she had to repeat it on the other side. Then said she also got a message to give me which was 'walk between the two pyramids'

The session was so intense that her guides forbade her to let me go outside that way. While the house was shielded, stepping outside would have exposed me to all the energies, something she discovered herself when she stepped out later and forgot to re-shield herself.

While the initial idea was for me and WA to see how we would go for a week, I found that we weren't able to touch each other, even though I was sleeping on the other side of her bed. This was also way outside my comfort zone, but I would say it's good to put yourself there from time to time.

One of her pets was a 8 month old white kitten called Pippin that seemed to enjoy spending her time around me. Sometimes she would just sit on my lap and purr and I sensed a clear connection during those times. Other times, she was just like a normal cat. The odd thing was that whenever looked at Pippin, the name Shanuue would pop into my head.  Which, typically I would ignore. Then one night, I awoke at around 3 a.m. and the cat was sleeping between me and WA. The name Shanuue was being insistent once again. It suddenly clicked that the cat was really hosting that phoenix. It sounded crazy to me, and hesitantly, I told WA about it in the morning. For her it was like, of course. She hadn't realized that the phoenix was using the cat as a host but once I mentioned it, it made perfect sense to her. Including the fact that Pippin would often lie on the spot where the eggs were. WA said that she couldn't believe that Shanuue would abandon the eggs like she did and she was grateful to know that she hadn't. (To me, though, it was as though she had forgotten her threat that she wouldn't pass on the eggs if Shanuue or Bennu came near her.) She also told me that when she was in the pet shop, the cat had escaped twice and they decided that it should come home with them.

Though I never trusted Shanuue completely (as I honestly never knew what her agenda was), I had to admit that when she was on my lap, I did feel much love coming from her.

I thought the whole point of the exercise of going to NZ was to 'share energy' with WA and transfer the eggs to me. Something that she had been showing an increasing reluctance to do, even before I arrived. As for me, I never felt that was something I should do. As it was, she had become so guarded that she said that she didn't trust the phoenii, particularly Bennu and said she didn't want her near the eggs. So when I came, Bennu would mostly kept her distance. Sometimes she would flit into me, and flit out the moment WA felt her. Personally, I could have really used the support at that time, but it wasn't to be.

On the day I arrived, WA and her daughter took me to a healing shop run by a man called Nigel, who was said to be a remarkable healer. I had a session booked with him later that week, but for that moment, they just took me in to look around. It was a Sunday and even though Nigel never worked that day, they took me on the off chance he might turn up.

I was looking through the collection of gem stones and was feeling if any of them resonated with me. I rarely use stones and I have found the ones I've used in the past to be of little use. Still, I found I was attracted to a obsidian mahogany stone which I purchased for NZD16.00. I had just about gone through every stone in the shop before I settled on that one. Right after I purchased it, Nigel, himself, came in with a box full of new stones which he was delivering. WA looked in the box and handed me a black wand shaped stone. It was a Black Tourmaline and the moment I held it, I sensed its power. I had never spent more than a few dollars on a stone and sixteen was a new record for me. This one was sixty dollars. Still, I couldn't walk away from it so I bought it.

I carried that stone with me everywhere I went.

The day after the deep healing session, WA wanted to take me to a place called Mission Bay, which was about a 20 minute drive from the house. I wanted to visit the shipping agency I worked for first, but I found I had gotten the wrong address, so I ended up missing them. We went directly to Mission Bay from there.

Mission Bay was just a small bay. There wasn't anything too special there, at least at first sight. But as we were walking along the beach, WA pointed out a tree to me that was native to New Zealand. I decided I would go up to it when she stopped me and pointed to a larger tree that was a bit further away. This appeared to be the 'elder' tree. I went alone up to it and under the braches and I heard it say, come around the other side. So I did, and I found an alcove with a branch jutting out. I then in my mind, I heard it say, It's taken a lot to get you here. Welcome.

It then asked me to take my wand and touch the branch with it and withdraw the essence of the tree. Then I was instructed to use the wand to transfer the energy into myself. So I did that. Then it said, okay, on your way and I left.

I thanked it and left to rejoin WA and we went across the street to have some lunch. As we were eating, I noticed that she had laid a white stick on the table. She told me she had picked it up for her daughter. For some reason, I brought up something I hadn't mentioned for eight years to anyone.

Back in 1995, I came across information of the Egyptian staff of life. I somehow knew that even though all of them were supposed to be destroyed when the Initiatives had left the planet, I had taken one and hidden it. I mentioned that to a friend at the time a year or so later that one day I would need to go and reclaim it. A odd thing to say, really, but then, in the context of things, no odder than anything else I’ve written.

I told WA this story and she said that I would need to do that day. She didn't tell me how, just that I would need to do it when we got back. Like, that wasn’t a tall order or anything! She also said that she sensed someone else was searching for it and I had to beat this person to the source.

After the lunch, we walked back out and I started to feel the strangest sensations running through me. It was like waves of energy running around my body and up and down my spine. I also felt extremely light and I effortlessly jumped up on a short wall we were walking besides.

WA could normally sense people's energies around her, but at the moment, I had become completely invisible to her radar. It seemed that the energy I had taken from the tree was starting to take hold and I felt supercharged. It was an amazing experience.

When we got home, she put on some music and told me to go get the staff. I sat there while she went and did something else, at a loss as to what I should do. So I held my want and I mind travelled. I found myself at a pyramid. Above it was a smaller pyramid that appeared to be floating above the big one. I entered into it and found symbols on a door. I went up to it and instinctively traced only part of the glyphs and the door opened.

I made my way to the top of the pyramid where the smaller one was floating and slowly spinning. On each of the four sides, there were more glyphs. Once again, I traced only part of them and on the forth one, the bottom opened and what I knew to be the staff of life energy descended. I took my wand and once again withdrew the energy into it. Then I was told to transfer this energy into myself which I did. (It took me about 5 months to assimilate this energy.) Then I closed the smaller pyramid and left.

Outside I met a dragon (I can't remember if it was Chinese or Western now) who told me to climb on its back. I did and it took me away to the council of phoenii and dragons who asked if I was still prepared to be ordained into the realm of fire. I said yes and then I was sent back, only arriving back in reality moments before WA's son returned home from school.

The staff of life, according to some sources is a very potent healing tool. However, it's also a very destructive tool if used in the wrong hands. It works at a molecular level.

So after the son left again, WA asked if I had gotten the staff and said yes. I still had the wand in my hand and she asked me to tell her what happened. So I began and as I moved my hand, the wand moved with it. She said, 'sorry, can you repeat that?' and so I did. Once again the wand moved with my hand and she asked me to stop moving it around as it was somehow slicing the energies in the room and the flow of conversation. She said it was like a laser cutting through the air.

So I held it still and explained to her what happened. The fact the wand was acting like this was verification that something had indeed happened. She told me to be very careful with the crystal and not wave it around, point it at anyone or use it on anyone until it had settled. I treated the wand with extreme caution after that, making sure I didn't point it at anyone.

It appeared that the entire NZ trip had been about the trip to Mission Bay and not the eggs, at least not for me. Whatever other agendas there were, they were just a ploy to get me to where I needed to be. And while the eggs were meant to be passed over to me, Dragonheart, Bennu and Shanuue had underestimated the maternal instincts of WA.

At one point, Bennu visited her and WA told her that she was going to keep the eggs. Needless to say, the phoenix was not happy, but she did nothing at that point, maybe in the hope that maybe she would relent at the last moment. However, it never happened, and personally, something told me that it would be a bad idea.

 The week finally ended and I was glad to go home.

 I kept in contact with WA for a few weeks until one day, about a month after I had returned from NZ, I had a vision at work and saw the eggs hatch.

It was after that when WA suddenly disappeared of my messenger. At first, I thought something had happened to her and was concerned, but when I was able to check the chat room she frequented (She had left CV and gone back there). The chat interface is one that retains the messages for quite a long time. So I was able to read the logs going back several day and I found that she was still alive and well. I was puzzled as to why she suddenly blocked me.

Also, suddenly the dragons and phoenii left and I could no longer feel their presence around me. Bennu stopped merging with me, and I have to say, I was saddened and really missed having her presence there.

For around 4 months, nothing happened. It was though I had been abandoned and I had no idea why. To say I felt disappointed, well, that was an understatement. If I had done something wrong, I couldn’t for the life of me work out what it could be.

Then in November of that year, the person who created the CV chat room (jwa) passed away, unexpectedly. This event was the catalyst for several things to occur, which led to my unravelling what was really going on.

His passing over led me to the chat room where WA was because I had noted in the CV chat that one lady had left a message there for a friend of mine, called Mel. (The same lady who I would later discuss the Dakini with.) However, due to a misunderstanding, we weren’t talking.

The reason was that she had told me she had seen a vision of a phoenix that was going around destroying everything and was enjoying it. Now, for the strangest of reasons, I became extremely agitated when she  told me that. I assumed she was having a vision of the future and an argument broke out with me pretty much telling her to go away. Something that is completely out of character for me. Mel also didn't like or trust Bennu (or Shanuue, though she didn't know her by name) and often warned me about trusting her. 

Of course, in the light of all the Egyptian God stuff, it makes more sense, especially, if, as I feel, it was a vision of me in the past.

Anyway, for some reason, the message piqued my curiosity. I went and checked it out. What really got my interest, though, was that I found she was chatting with White Phoenix.

At this point, I should point out that WA really detested Mel for some reason and one of the conditions of her passing the eggs onto me was that I break off my friendship with her. However, this went against my very grain so I didn’t. At least, not for her, and not at the time. 

So it was curious that White Phoenix and Mel had met independently of me and WA and had developed a friendship and were amazed to discovered that him and me had visited the same lady in NZ.

Then Mel mentioned Shanuue in CV chat. I knew she must have gotten that from WP, but found it odd and ironic that she would be involved with this phoenix, considering she never trusted Bennu and, even though she didn't really know it at the time, Shanuue. She also was unaware that Shanuue was the same phoenix who had been messing around with me, especially during the nexus point back in 2000. (And well before that, too.)

So I said, Shanuue and Bennu are connected to which she replied, Shanuue wishes to be alone. I said she (Shanuue) ought to know better than to say that. I left saying ‘Good luck, Mel, you’re going to need it.’ I felt that something odd was about to go down, and sure enough a week or so later, it did.

Suddenly WP broke up with her (which I later found was due to the urgings of some people from his chat room) and came into the room to apologize to me. For what reason, I had no idea, but as I spoke  him, the story came out that people had been telling him how dark I was and he had believed it without checking it for himself.

He told me it was WA who had been telling others and she had warned him not to talk to me because I would try and steal his girlfriend away from him. I have to say, that one still leaves me shaking my head as I didn’t know who his girlfriend was at the time, and once I did meet her, I was quite under-whelmed with her. I certainly wouldn’t have wasted any time there.

It really surprised me that after everything that had been said and done, WA was telling people I was evil and that I was attacking her. And while I might have understood that something may have set her off about some attack on her, the girlfriend stealing story was clearly blatantly a malicious lie. I have no idea what her motives were, but I figured it was really her problem.

Two things really needed to be stated here. The last thing I would do is attack someone as that would void my own protection and undo years of hard work I have done to get to these levels. And secondly, if I had really been attacking here, I’m pretty sure she wouldn’t have been around to tell everyone else about it.

However, I was still curious as to why she thought I was attacking her. So I send out my mind to find Bennu, who had been gone for a few months by that time, and managed to track her down. I asked her if she had been attacking WA. She launched into an explanation and a justification that WA had refused to pass the eggs onto me as per her agreement and because of that, the hybrids were not what they needed to be. Bennu was furious. Apparently the eggs needed my energy. The phoenix energy. Now they were mostly just dragon with a touch of phoenix to them.

Bennu left again after that, and it wouldn’t be till 2007 when she would once again show up, but that’s another story.

I’ve not spoken to WA since she blocked me nor do I have any desire to. In any case, my guides are more than happy for her to stay away.

While I was hanging around WA’s place of chat and unravelling the stuff that had gone on behind my back, I came across someone who I will call DoI. She took a bit of an interest in me for the first couple of times we spoke. I spoke to her but didn't let her in She then told me she was friends with WA and she didn't care what had gone on between us. Anyways, I told her that I didn't know who to trust and that was the last I heard of her for a while.

Then about five months later, she suddenly appeared in the Celestine Vision chat room. Even though she didn't appear to remember me, I was immediately curious of her presence. She was speaking of how she and her group had created rainbow portals and that they had been working with the phoenix energy. Naturally, this caught my attention. (And the rainbow portals were too synchy for me to ignore in light of my novel which I have written about .) She asked me what my connection was to the phoenix energy and I replied: I am the phoenix energy. She didn't seem to believe me for some reason.

That night, though, I went and investigated the portals, being curious as to where it led to.  I went through one and found myself nowhere in particular, then I went through another and to my surprise, I found that I was at what felt like my main source. The thought went through my head: I've been here before. It felt like me, but only very expanded. It was dark and somehow the energy felt like it had been corrupted, but I was certain that I was at the phoenix soul itself.

The next time I saw her, I asked her if the portal led to phoenix. She confirmed that it did, and mentioned that they connected to many other levels. It was then she took more of an interest. She seemed impressed that I could know this without being told

She invited me to her room in the other chat and I went  to visit a few days later. When I entered, it felt as though there was a massive drain on my energies. In my mind, I went to the rainbow portal and closed it down somewhat and the sensation of the drain lessened dramatically.

The interesting part of that story, though, isn’t the fact that I found my main source, but there was another portal that I went in after. This lead to the Eye of RA.

I went through the portal and ran slap bang into a dragon, who wasn’t at all happy to see me and promptly pushed me out. To say I was taken by surprise was an understatement, but I somehow just knew that I had just met RA.

Over the next few days, I felt RA contacting me and first he apologized that he had acted in that way and said he didn’t recognize me. Then he claimed he was angry that DoI had built the portal to the eye and wanted me to pass on the message that he wasn’t happy.

I didn’t, though, because something held me back. And I was intrigued by the fact that RA had appeared. It was then, I traced his energy retrospectively and realized who he was. He was Dragonheart, the same dragon that connected to WA.

Little wonder he didn’t want his name being mentioned to me and the cracks began to show in the façade of him pretending not to know who I was.

In fact, RA was most displeased to see me, though he didn’t bother me. He had no power over me that I was aware of, and when I went to visit the hybrids, to see how they were going, he attempted to frighten me off by roaring into my face. I took little notice.

On the hybrids, I felt the need to introduce myself to them, to clear any misconceptions that may have been spread about me.

On the subject of astral eggs and astral being that have been hatched in a 3D body, I have been given the following information by my guides. 

An astral body that is hatched on this level, will be much more able to work within the two worlds. However, this will be more the case should the vibration of this planet once again been lifted.

If what I understand is correct, and if the vibration of this planet can be raised, as many seem to be believing and working towards, then this might not be as good idea as is currently believed. 

If such a thing is indeed possible, if the story I have been told is true (and I can only ask you, the reader, to decide that for yourself with searching your feelings), then it would open the way for the return of the false gods and who knows what else.

Also on the subject of the hybrids, according to my guides, I was needed to carry the eggs because I am the phoenix energy. My energy was the best source to feed and incubate them.

However, it was also pointed out to me that as I was not the initial one that birthed them, the hybrids would not have been loyal to me and there were plans to use them against me, especially as they were carrying my energies which would have enabled them to keep me in ‘check’.

For those of you who are wondering, did I ever become initiated into realm of fire, the answer is, no, I don’t think so.

Even though, at the times, phoenix synchs were going crazy, nothing happened afterwards. I’m not sure if this was due to it all being an elaborate ruse, or if it was because I never received the egg or was it because I got the energy of the staff of life.

I was lead to believe that I was meant to be a weapon on their front line. With my abilities, I could have wiped through the resistance, whatever that might have been.

I know that it’s nothing I could have done, though. To use my abilities to destroy, even if it is supposed to be darkness, is something I just can’t do. You can’t heal darkness by destroying it. It’s like throwing gasoline on a fire to try and put it out.

Since the period in 2004, it’s been relatively quiet from the dragon / phoenix front. That’s not to say that they are gone because I know they’re not. I can sense them watching me from hidden places.

Do I harbour any hard feelings about this? No, not at all. No one does anything inappropriate considering their model of the universe.  I certainly could not have achieved and experienced what I have without it.

The other point I want to clear up is the question of whether I am a hybrid or not. The answer, according to my guides, the Dakini, is no. I am the phoenix energy. They say I am an archetype, also referred to as an Ancient. How true that is, well… if you are able to believe my story, then you can believe this, too.

That’s the thing about personal stories. Until you’ve experienced something like this for yourself, you’re always left with doubt as to how real it is. I know that when I read of another’s tale, I wonder, is he making it up? Has he/she really experienced this? It’s a valid question. But I say, don’t believe anything I tell you, check your feelings. Does it resonate with you? Do you feel the truth? A sense of clarity? If you do, then you have your answer.

As I said, this is but a snippet of things that have happened. I wouldn’t know how to begin to tell the full story, nor would I wish to, as too many people would be likely to read about themselves here.

However, for those who are involved with this story, I make no apologies. I do what I have to do and I share what I have to in order to help others.

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