My personal psychic experiences
The Shop
It was only a few months later when my next defining moment came. This came to me in a stranger manner. During the latter part of 84, I had been seized with the desire to go out and purchase a CB (citizen band) radio. As I always followed those urges, I went right out and did it. (That in itself had a major influence on my life for years to come as I met friends who I still talk to today.)
One day, soon after I had set it up, some people were talking about astral travel. I remembered how I once experienced the feeling of leaving my body, but I snapped back as soon as I became aware of what was happening. I desired to learn more about it, and how to do it. Then this male broke into our conversation, and said that I could learn all about it from an author by the name of Tuesday Lobsang Rampa. The books, even then, were rare and hard to come by, but by curious coincidence, they were all in my bookshelf.
They had come there by default. My step father had read The Third Eye, which was the first one, and had found that interesting, so his wife kept on buying new ones as they kept on coming out. He never was interested enough to read them himself, and for some reason, I decided back in 1981 to add them to my own bookshelf. There they sat, unread, until the day that voice on the CB radio told me to go and read them.
Read them I did. I was astounded by the incredible amount of knowledge and insight that it gave me into Eastern Philosophy and the astral worlds. Much of it had the ring of truth, while some of it just didn’t quite gel. But there was more truth than not in them. (At the time, I accepted every word and it took me many years to see the parts that weren’t quite right. I knew they weren’t right because they were based on his own belief system, which was his truth.)
More than anything, those books freed me from the fear of Satan. I learned that there was, in fact, no Devil. Those books gave me a freedom that allowed me to seriously get started on my spiritual path and I started to become more in tune with hearing my guides, without the feelings of fear or the sense of being attacked.
Still, the knowledge was flawed, and as I totally accepted it, my own belief system was based on the ‘life is just a hard school’ and ‘suffering is the only way to learn’.
I studied those books for a good five years, rereading them from time to time and absorbing every fact I could get.
By the end of the 80s, I started to study Taoism, which I found was very earthy wisdom, and it complimented what Rampa wrote, and also the power of the subconscious mind.
By 1994, I thought I had it all. All the knowledge and understanding of how it worked.
I’ll never make that assumption again.
Unfortunately, I had also built up belief systems that were holding me back, and I had no understanding of who I was and what I could do. The year 1994 saw me go through the ‘dark night of the soul’. It was one of the most painful, lonely and intense period of my life, and I found that I really was alone, as my friends did not support me. Nor did they want to know about what I was going through and nor were they interested in who I was and what I saw.What was happening was that all my old patterns and beliefs were being challenged. They no longer worked for me. If I was to move on, I would have to discard them and embrace new ones.
The dark night of the soul is also the dawn of true awakening. I found that I started to slowly recover, and new ideas, knowledge, guidance and information started to present itself to me. It's also a period where your old belief systems, ones that no longer serve you, have to change. It's the letting go of those old beliefs that cause the intense pain that you often feel and it can possibly lead to a nervous breakdown.
The Bach Flower Remedy, Sweet Chestnut is ideal for helping you through such a time of crisis.
It was soon after that I started to meet, for the first time in my life, (with one exception) other psychic people.One lady, in particular, started it off for me. Nancy ran a healing / massage centre, and she was single, a few years younger than me, and very pretty. I thought I fell in love with her at the time, but in truth, I was drawn by an irresistible compulsion to see her. I made appointments with her for massages nearly every week or so. She got to know me and I got to know her, and I hung on her every word. Indeed, she introduced me to a psychic healer, Bach Flower Remedies, aromatherapy and led me to another author who also had a profound effect on my life.
The book was Journey into Nature by Michael J Roads, which spoke of the authors journey into nature, and ultimately oneness. (Over the course of three books.) They had a very profound effect on me, and caused me to understand and change my belief system, which in turn changed my life and accelerated my spiritual growth.
Sadly, or fortunately, as they case probably was, Nancy only ever thought of me as a client, and rejected any attempt I made at friendship, citing that work and friends didn’t mix together.
The reason I was compelled to see her so much became clear in 1995. She had put a soul call for help. Someone, in their infinite wisdom (lol) decided that I would be the one to answer it. As I was not in tune with my intuition at the time, nor did I heed or understand my feelings, other means were used to ensure I would see her. (Nowadays, the call is as clear as a bell, and I know to who and when to respond and how.)
What soon became to clear, after a while, was that Nancy was under a psychic attack herself. Her business was failing, her memory was being affected and no matter what she tried, she could not seem to move forwards.
Surprisingly, it didn’t take me very long to work out exactly what was going on. Keeping a diary of events helped me to put it all together. Then one day, during a massage, I told her exactly what was happening, even though I had no proof.
I told her that she was under psychic attack and the source was her ex-boyfriend, who she was partners with in that business and was living upstairs.
She said that yes, and that she had known it, but had been unable to admit it. The story, in brief was, that Mich was a former boyfriend of hers. They were together for 10 odd years before she realised that the relationship wasn’t going anywhere and she broke it off. But to his mind, she was the only one for him (not that I blamed him) and he wanted to keep the relationship going. She wanted to be just friends and dissolve the karmic bond between them. (She sought a psychic healer’s help in trying to do that.) What occurred after that was that they went in together as partners to buy the shop. He put up the money, apparently, for the both of them. She stated many time that this did not mean that they were getting back together and that they were only partners. In the beginning she lived in a separate room in the shop, but eventually it was revealed by him that he had hoped that working together would make her love him again. When that didn’t happen, he became bitter about it and decided that it was all or nothing. So she moved out and he wanted the money back that he had put in for her which was one of the reasons why she was working so hard. She was afraid that he was blocking her path and he was definitely blocking his own path by refusing to let go and follow his own calling. Apparently they had known each other in previous lives and the relationship had run its course. Now it was time for her to move on. The psychic healer also tried to help him, but he rejected the help and even blamed her for causing trouble. He then spent of his time in his room attacking her. Everything that could go wrong, did go wrong for her and she was now at her wits end.
She told me how she was at her wits end about Michael. She also told me that she couldn’t understand why she was telling me this
Somehow, I felt what I needed to do. I suggested a visualisation to help repel the force. I told her to imaging herself covered in a dark light which represented his dark influences, and said that a bright golden light of love and harmony was radiating from her and me and displacing the dark force. As the darkness had nowhere else to go, it must be returned to its source for the maker to either transmute it into goodness or do whatever he had to do with it. Also to fill the shop with that light as well. I promised to keep up the visualizations to help her.
It felt like I was slipping into a pair of well worn shoes.
Interestingly enough, that night I picked up a small book which I had had for years, but never looked at, and within it contained the exact information I needed on psychic attacks. The main point was that it attacked you at your weakest point. It also gave me some knowledge on how it worked and what could be done. I wrote her a letter on what needed to be done, and also enclosed a picture of a Pa Kua symbol, which was said to be a powerful Taoist symbol that could ward off evil.
A week or so later, I spoke to her on the phone and she was very excited. She told me that a crisis point had come and things had suddenly began moving, like a burst damn.
She said how suddenly something had happened and the shop which had become so stagnant, had suddenly revitalised itself and she could hardly keep up. She had moved back into the shop. Business was suddenly picking up and she had renovations and everything happening. She had committed herself for the next few months and she wasn’t seeing anyone or doing anything. And this from a person who was totally defeated just over a week ago and had lost all sight and hope of her future.
When I next entered the shop, the change was very apparent. No longer did it feel dark and oppressive. It felt vibrant, positive, almost filled with light. There was a marked difference.
Nancy told me that she could definitely tell the difference and once again she said how things were really moving and she couldn’t get over it.
She told me how one of her friends had suddenly just popped into the store the week before and she had been told to pray for her. She went into the massage room and started to pray and speak in tongues. Nancy said that she experienced a vision of swords made out of light and that meant that the army of God was coming to help.
The next day, the crises happened. Michael was there waiting for her when she got in that morning and he started to abuse her like crazy asking where she’d been and what she thought she was doing. He even smashed her certificates and slapped her face.
She got my letter that day and she went for a walk to read the letters and to get away to let of some emotions. She sat down behind a nearby service station. Michael eventually found her and she had just opened up my letter. She pulled out the photo of the Pa Kua symbol and showed it to him.
“Can you look at that?” she asked. I had once showed her a photo of it that I kept on me and told her no evil could look at it.
“Yes,” he replied. And he seemed to simmer down.
“He’s not evil,” I said, “just... sad.”
She agreed and said that he couldn’t do things when he was unhappy and now he was getting on with his own life. Anyway, from that moment on, they started to work together and decide on the strategies that would make the shop work. During the talk, she kept the photo between them. And from then on, it’s been full steam all the way. She was totally amazed by what had happened. She still was coming to terms with it.
After that, my compulsion to see her faded, and I was no longer drawn to her or her shop. The business survived and I stopped going altogether.
I never worked out if it was me or her friend, or both that made the difference, but I do believe that what I did must have done some good.
That was my first major calling for helping someone, but by no means my last. It was the start of a my own awakening. I started to really tune into my intuition and my guides.
Over the next few years, I answered quite a number of soul calls, and sometimes I was able to help, some times I wasn’t. Most of the time, all that was required was to just pass on a message or help them get through some difficult period of time.In 1996, I joined a healing circle, which lasted a year, which further added to my knowledge and experience. I believe it also led to events that had me face the entity that had been attacking me all those years.
I was introduced to another series of books by a member of the healing circle that broadened my understanding and knowledge. It was called the Magus of Strovolos by K. Makrides. It explained the nature of elementals, karma and healing. It was amazing knowledge, and less flawed, in my opinion, then many other sources.
In 2000, I was introduced to Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsh. These books have become my main ‘bible’. I’ve found the knowledge there to resonate with me in a very complete way and it also helped me to connect very strongly to my own guides, etc.
